Day 79: Rambling is awesome

Warning: huge wall of text coming. xD You really should read it though. Girl With A Really Long Braid wrote this for me. HOW KIND! x3 I'm off to the lake now, so no blog posts for like... two weeks. Feel free to check out http://gentleoceanmichuru.deviantart.com/journal/42523512/ if you're wondering why two weeks. You really only need to read the first part. :3 EMail me lots! I LOVE COMING HOME TO PILES OF EMAILS! It makes me feel loved. :'D Also, my loser of a bro, Tummy, gets one email every day from I Can Haz Cheezburger  and I realllly want more emails than him. He already has two. HELP ME DEFEAT MY BROTHER IN POPULARITY! Even though his only 'popularity' comes from a website that automatically sends him emails. Colombian Rice Eater, your hatred for Tummy, should outshine even your desire to make me feel alone and unloved, am I right?

I'm sitting in front of my computer. I have a guest entry for my friend's blog I need to finish soon and I'm drawing a blank. I've thought about all the thing in my life that bring me joy or can at least make me focus long enough. Then, like an epiphany I never imagined I could have I thought of what I could write about.
Pure, unconnected ramblings.
I need to start somewhere so I'll start with the basics. A self introduction. Now a warning before I get any further, I have no idea what'll happen at the end of this entry. If you find yourself confused, it's fine. If you understand every word of this and have followed it all the way to the end. There's something wrong with and I think I'll take a few cautious steps away from you.

I am, without a doubt, just an mildly ordinary person. I'm the type of person that if we've only met once and haven't seen each other in a few days, you'll probably forget. Well mostly. I may remember your face and say hello to you or give you a nod as I pass you. You'll probably smile cautiously, you might even say hello if you're that type of person. But you'll be squinting your eyes at me as if by bluring my face you'll remember me better. You might have a vague sense of knowing me, but unable to place exactly how you know me. I've had this happen to me a few times, with the exception of this one girl who came to bring my family and I our ice cream treats at the Dairy Queen, the girl who insisted she knew me from her sister's soccer team. I haven't been on a soccer team for years, and in another province at that! Yet somehow this girl was smiling away and somehow knew my name. I was (naturally) slightly disturbed at the fact that there might be a person running around my city looking like me. I wonder if she likes the same things as I do, like One Piece or writing or scaring my dog with the vaccum cleaner (yes I'm a terrible person, moving on now!). I wonder if she has the same skills as me like writing or staring at the sky and knowing exactly what time it is. Whoever she may or may not be, I sincerly hope she's the good version of us. Because if I myself am as bad as I could be, well, I'm both relieved and disappointed. I am the rare person who likes the way they look. I eat what I want, wear what I want and can look in the mirror and all I can think of how nice it would be to take a bar of soap and write nonsense all over it. Especially since it's my sister's job to clean the mirrors and glass. (Note: I have done so before and I hide in my room, right up against the door she was trying to break down as she screamed at me to come clean up my mess and other less than nice sentences.) 


I like my name because, it's kinda badass the way I got it. I'm not named after relatives or fictional characters my parents worshipped (as I consider naming my children, if I have any). No, my mother named me simply because her dreams told her to. She was in the hospital, still unsure of what to name me. When she fell asleep that night she had a dream, she saw her mother (my grandmother, no dur) sitting in a chair holding a baby. She looked up at my mother and asked if she wanted to see her newborn baby daugher, *insert my name here*. Now, I can't tell what caused this dream, maybe it was fate, maybe it was some kind of meds the doctors were giving her. But sure enough, I can't help but feel a little more awesome knowing my name has some cool back story. I feel even more awesome knowing my sister was given her name simply for reasons my dad can't remember, though he's pretty sure it's because he thought it sounded nice. I have another sibling, a little brother who will now and forever be refered to as "Minion". A nickname he has accepted and responds to. I've heard one of his friends has started calling her little brother "Minion", I feel very proud of myself. Minion and I get along pretty well. I'm not sure if it's because I'm several years older than him but somehow or another I can hang around him a little longer than my sister. Who is the type of person who worries what others think of her and can get downright nasty if I bother her (which I do, what can I say? I can't help it!). I once got into an arguement and she threw her figure skates at me. I got a very large bruise. I was not happy. When she's on her own, she mostly ignores you or snaps at you to leave her alone. When she's around her friends, she's just...well...I can't describe it really... She just gets in a way that makes you want to slap her across the cheek and scream at her. 


But enough about that, this rambling is to jump from one subject to another and I don't want to get stuck on one subject for too long. I'm a lucid dreamer, and I'm also a daydreamer. In my dreams, I've felt pain, visited more one place more than once and time has gone by. Although my friends seem to think it's impossible, I have died in my dreams. But only for a few moments, than I became a sort of zombie and went on a berserker blood rage on the people who shot me. I've been running or walking before and tripped or missed a step, than been dimly woken up becase my foot suddenly jerked down as if I were falling into a pothole of some sorts. I've had my dreams put on pause while I was suddenly awoken, and than put on play when I fell back to sleep. I can wake myself up from my dream. I force myself to open my real eyes. It took a bit of practice and the feeling is...unnatural. It's tearing yourself away from a world and being throw back into reality. My daydreams are vivid, with clear color and clear sound. My eyes are tired from staring at this screen, I blame the stupid bargain bin DS game I've been playing for hours (time wasted unwisely). The game is beside me, it's the stupidest game but I want to beat it. Whether I litterally beat it and throw it out the window or finish the game is unclear at this time. I think I'm a little crazy, I talk to myself or imaginary people/friends because I'm bored, I talk to inanimate objects. I talk to my OCs or favorite characters because sometimes they're the only people I can talk to at the moment and can listen to me rant it out in my head. I have no train of thought, just a large empty space where words and ideas mesh together and sometimes make the long journey from my head to my mouth. I start sentences and sometimes don't finish them because I've lost interest or my brain has decided to switch to another subject (something that really annoys my friends). I've been upgraded from a single bed to a double bed but still haven't gotten used to it. I still curl up into a little ball and wrap myself in all the blankets I can grab. It feels safe and cozy. I'm on msn right now as I write this, no one is online. All my friends are gone or sleeping. Forever alone~. I don't know what'll happen to me in the future. I just keep my grades up and deal with present or soon problems. Recently a bunch of people have asked me what I'll do in a few years, frankly I'm not sure. What I'm interested in now, I might not care for when the time comes. I'll never know. All I can do it go about things the way I want.

I'm reading over this and I realize how I've just been talking about myself. So let's talk about YOU.

YOU are a person I probably don't know or will never meet.
YOU are kinda a creeper if I really don't know, or will ever meet you.

And most importantly I've just wasted YOUR time.

Mission accomplished.

I'm finished now. I give YOU permission to leave.

YOU may go.

^_^ Have a nice day~!   

Day 48: Anime conventions are so FREAKING awesome...

... it's unbelievable. Even though this was more like a party, I think. :XD:

(TAlking about the anime convention I went to on Saturday the 4th. Just so you know.)

I spent about $70 dollars on stuff, including this AMAZING PLUSHIE, so I now possess $15 in total in the WHOLE WORLD plus spare change. ;_; I got a T-shirt, two bookmarks (one for a friend), a pair of earrings (for said friend), a Sailor Mercury bead-keychain-thing, a free comic book, and two pictures, one for me and one for the same friend. I'm gonna upload a picture of my awesome stuff soon, I hope! If I can actually find the motivation to work on stuff, I am so TOTALLY gonna have a booth there next year. I'm thinking Sailor Moon and Pokemon plushies, a few clay Pokemon and Sailor Moon things, a lot of chibis, and a few really awesome other pictures. I MUST IMPROVE ON EVERYTHING AND MAKE MONEEEEH ASFKBSEGLKJAOUDFSDLFKGJHDLIBGIKJDFNVLISAUEHBNFSDZJL

Anyways. A LOT of my friends were there. Chinese Girl We All Love, Closet DaD Fan, Girl With A Really Long Braid, Pretty Girl I Barely Know, Sailor Moon Fan Who Is Epic At Drawing, Supreme Harem Master, Anime Club Leader, and Slightly Creepy Person, who walked in being chill and walked out with a girlfriend. :XD: PLAYEEEERRRRR. I have lots of pictures I'll upload of our cosplays. Soooo many people asked to take a picture of me and I felt REALLY HONOURED! So there are probably a lot of cool pictures being uploaded on Facebook right now - who knows, maybe even on dA! - of me being super attractive as a BLONDE GEISHA. Worship meee!!!

I took several pictures of people with cool cosplays... Sailor Jupiter, Zelda, No-Face (who scared the shit outta me!), a lot of my friends, and cool stuff like that. There were a few people I really wish I'd taken pictures of: a REALLY REALLY HOT guy with no shirt on (and, to quote Sailor Moon Fan Who Is Epic At Drawing, with "the body of a god") from Street Fighter or some shiz like that, an old dude from Dragonball Z, Pretty Girl I Barely Know (she was Hermione), several lolitas, the Eleventh Doctor (COMPLETE WITH FEZ), and this really attractive guy in epic clothing. Okay, so I admit that he's probably like ten years older than me, but he was SUPER attractive. His cosplay looked super familiar but I couldn't place it, and as we were all leaving I asked him what it was. He told me the reason I couldn't figure out what his cosplay was is that he, like me, wasn't actually cosplaying. Apparently he was wearing EGA , or Elegant Gothic Attire (or something like that. He was attractive, okay?!?!?!), which is the male counterpart of Gothic Lolita. He also told me that the reason I thought he looked familiar is because I was probably thinking of Alucard from Hellsing, who dresses in the same style. He moved his hands while he spoke in a really cool way, like he was some Victorian dude. And he had a CANE. Also, during the dance that took up the last three hours, he actually DANCED. While most people were just doing the typical 'untz untz untz untz' kind of modern dancing (BOOOOORIIIIING), he was somehow able to pull off ACTUALLY dancing. With a cane. Stylishly. I was REALLY impressed.

The dance part probably requires a little explanation. This wasn't exactly your typical anime con. There was an artist's alley, yes. (I met this one person I know from deviantART in real life. WHEEEE!) There were guest speakers (voice actor dude, comic artists) there, yes. There was also a raffle, a silent auction, a cosplay contest, an anime screening, and a dance from nine until midnight. I went home for supper, and to remove the annoying white makeup from my face (although I re-applied the funky lips and eyeliner and blush-spot-things so I still looked geisha-like). We returned just in time to catch the results of the cosplay contest. Anime Club Leader got an honourable for her costume! :'D Later, while we waited for the dance to start, we got started on a movie called "Summer Wars." We ended up watching the whole thing, giving us like an hour left for dancing. Good movie, by the way. Reminds me of War Games...

So. Next year? Me and Sailor Moon Fan Who Is Epic At Drawing are making a lolita costume for her in the next little while. I am hoping to make a really epic Sailor Moon costume in the distant future. I might get a table to sell stuff at and make money. MONEYMONEYMONEYMONEYMONEYMONEYMONEYMONEY And I am not going to arrive later than when the doors open, and I shall never leave.